Sentiments of a Contractor/Consultant

I am having a crisis right now. I don’t know if what I am feeling is right or I just don’t have enough faith in Him and fear for the things that can possibly happen. I’ll be totally depressed if not for the Smallville marathon I am having or the giggles brought by my daughter every time we go home or the success my wife is achieving in her career.

It seemed perfect for me at first but as it progressed, I learned that it’s not that of a good thing after all. I prayed that I made the correct decisions. Is it my fault at all? Or maybe I am wrong. Or just being pessimistic and blinding myself from the good ones in front of me. I don’t know.